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It's 12 o'clock On a starless night The room's quiet There's no one in sight I wait by the phone I wait for your call I wonder where you are I wonder if you care At all It's 12 o'clock On a sunny beach The waves crash on the shore Everything's out of reach I sit and stare at the sea I sit and touch the sand I wonder what lies ahead I wonder if I'll ever see you Again

It doesn’t seem so long ago That I looked at you from here Most of the time I still picture you near Was it my choice to pack Or did you do it behind my back Was it your decision to give up Or did I just decide to stand up It doesn’t seem so long ago Since I’ve been this wrong Most of the time I pretend you’re not gone Don’t break away Don’t make me say These words of escape There’s a time For every affair Under the heavens A time to tear down And a time to reach up A time to embrace And a time to forgive Don’t stay away Don’t make me plan My next escape It doesn’t see

I wish I could close my eyes again And for a second in the darkness See what the future holds I wish I could watch the sun set And in that thin orange haze Pretend that I am whole These uninspired steps I take Misleading me at every turn Can never change my fate I’ll just keep walking forward Until I hit a wall strong enough To stop me for good I wish I could be there again In that room where time is still And not worry about tomorrow I wish I could sleep tonight And in a peaceful dream Find the courage to wake up This reality before me Frightens me like no other Where can I find refuge The boat’s sailed again

I think I’m running out of wrong turns to take How much longer can I keep going in circles Every stop for gas is just another excuse Every mile I drive trough feels pointless I drive past as fast as I can No need to stop along the way It would just slow me down No matter how long I keep going This trip will never end Doesn’t make much sense Always speeding towards the storms Just doesn’t feel quite right Having the sunlight hit my eyes I must be close to my reward Some sort of haven If I keep ignoring the stop signs What’s to stop me from crashing Don’t dare to take my foot off the gas pedal The bra

I feel uneasy about this precarious arrangement of ours I can’t come to terms with the way it all fell apart No amount of letters or presents can make up For leaving again It’s silly to still imagine we would ever work I’m always so lonely and afraid to say so Nobody can choose anything anymore Seems a good enough excuse The sad truth is I am just like you In every awkward, clumsy way This is not me, looking back Trying to keep a straight face This is not me, holding on To the things I left behind This is not me, pretending again Another impossible fantasy This is me or maybe it’s not I don’t know any